Just a sudden realization, call it whimsical if you'd like-
For better or worse, I feel like I've reverted back to being how I was before I'd enlisted...
I feel like nothing in my military life matters anymore; There are way better things in my life to fret over than outfields/missions, so I'm going to stop thinking about all that shit and just accept them, come what may.
This isn't about some oh-im-ord'ing-i-gotta-start-planning-for-the-aftermath crap, I hate it when people start preaching to me about the term 'maturity'.
That word is non-existent in my books; if there's something that needs to be done then I'll just get it over with.
(and now all the hate is coming back to me again, fuckin' society and their views can kiss my ass, I'm a one man show and I don't need help from anyone)

